I hide it...not because Im shameful...because its clever thing to do.

From the age of 14 i started listening to metal...iron maiden, ozzy, black sabbath...then by the time i was 21 i was more into death metal stuff like obituary, sepultura, napalm death, etc.....

Till 26 i was so much into metal that my clothes used to be weird and my friends too...but by that time i already started working (thought call center work is cool enough for me). That time it was easy and ok to talk about metal and be on it 24 hour coz i was just an young agent...nobody bothered and nobody cared...infact my seniors and colleagues found me cool.

Now im 32 and a manager in call center...no longer that skinnier...no longer can wear wierd clothes...but hell inside i still have that crave...i can become childish as ever when it comes to metal...but no i have different identity to persue..Cant afford to be that!!! There are few chaps in my team who talks abt metal all the time...once i joined them in a discussion but quickly i found that my knowledge in it is so good that they had a strange look on me...as if its their area of expertise and not mine so how come i know..

The funniest part...it is alrite to talk about and listen to discos and pop songs like my boss does...still cool enough...but if u speak u listen to bands like obituary and stuff ur weird coz most people wouldn't be able to connect me as the person as i am in office...tall, polite, well-dressed person and most crucially an important manager and a boss!...

Man, i tellya...sometimes what u really are you have to hide till oneday u realise it faded.

Do u have the same feeling about something like i do?

Sure I'll 'fess up:
Being a neatly dressed, now motherly looking woman... I got strange looks when I forgot to turn down the radio when I drove into work and I was listening to Saliva (a metal band). I listen to a little of everything (classical, rock, Danny Kaye, pop and dance), but some days metal is just necessary.
Also they are generally surprised to find out that I play Dungeons and Dragons every weekend.
How about you, what lies beneath that mild mannered exterior?

I recently watched a movie called 'Rock On'...its an indian movie (i dunno if you get it english dubbed)...well the movie is exactly a tell tale of our lives.

Not that I regret, but has most of us chosen the same profession as we really wanted deep inside? I bet most of us has been dragged into it by default due to societal ways and monetary needs.

I met a man the other day in an elevator who looked worried and tired, just asked me "why do all work has to be stressful these days and take all your time away from all the things that makes you happy?"

I was surprized to this sudden remark. I thought most of us are not happy these days, but why? Is it the rule of the modern world or we are simply giving up on ourselves??